Have to stop thinking like a fat girl.

Hi-didly-Hi!! Ok, to day I dont think I had a great day, I had two scrambled eggs and a sausages for my breakfast, well chewd but i shouldnt have had it. Then for my dinner I had a tiny portion of meal, some mash potatos and cabbage. I had it all well mashed with white sauce and gravy, and it went down well. But it is my latenight picking that is KILLING me and it is getting me DOWN.
Tonight I had some Tuc crackers and some cream cheese and then I had a Twix. WTF??? What is wrong with me that I just cannot say NO. Then I had a cup of hot chocolate before I went to bed and it had a spoon of sugar in it. This not the way I wanted this to happen and I am sooooo mad with myself for making wrong choices.
Tomorrow is another brand new day and a brand new band day. today is gone. Tomorrow is yet to come. I have to make those choices and stick to the plan. It is only I can achieve this for myself.
I am getting married in June 23rd 2012, and I want to be 10 stone (140lbs) for my wedding. We are having a spectacular wedding in the Canarie Islands and I am planning the most luxurious venue and food.  I want everything to be perfect, I got this band in, to help me live the dreams I always had as a young girl growing up and being told I was chubby when I WASNT> But if the shoe fits wear it I thought to myself. The more my parents refused to give me sweets and treats, I craved them. I was in the tuck shop in school filling my face with all sorts of stuff and then they had no control over that and I piled on the weight. I was bullied in school by one boy, who used to roar " SUMO" down the corridor when I walked by. My self confidence shattered and to this day I struggle in social situations, Well I want that to STOP,  I want to walk into a room and turn heads. I want to wear trendy clothes and for once be seen as a "hotty". I plan on getting my teeth done in Turkey when I have lost all the weight, its 5000 euro for a full set of porcelain veneers over there and they are excellent dentists, my fiance's Aunty got hers done and they are beautiful.. compared to 25,000 euro over here I think its worth it!
I am annoyed the weight isn't coming off as quick as I want it to, so I am taking drastic steps to move it along.
1) One cup containers for all my meals,
2)low carb high protein.
3) 2 litres water per day.
4) skimmed milk at night with some splenda and low fat chocolate.
5? walking for at leaset on hour a day.
6) taking all my supplemets and vitamins.
7)Everything as low fat and sugar free as possible.
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18 days post op, 12.8lbs down!!!

Hi people! I have been having a busy week so I am sorry I have not updated you recently on my progress. This new "active me" is a busy girl!! I have discovered some new foods that have really helped me on my journey that are available in Ireland (compared to all of the American foods suggested on some sites) and I have also moved on to the "mushys" until next Tuesday, although I am actually considering staying on them until next Friday to give myself an extra boost. I have been enjoying cheesy omelettes, two eggs and a tiny bit of butter and about a tablespoon of cheese and they have been going down a treat. There is approx 157 cals in two average eggs and about 14g of protein so it is a good choice for your mushys. I have also been enjoying soups, smoothies and yogurts, and I also found the crackers they gave us in the hospital before we left and these have been a great substitute for bread for me. They do them in Tescos and they are called Dutch crispbreads and they are in the lighter choices range. They are lovely with sugar free jam, light cheese spread or just even a little  low fat butter.
The other thing that has really helped me has been putting some cordial into my water and I have ended up drinking loads of water as it has added some flavour. My favorite is the Tesco Finest Elderflower and apple it is not sugar free but for the little drop you put in its worth it of you get your water down you!
I had my first meal out today, and I tried to make the best choice I could on the menu. I had Monkfish medallions in a chili cream sauce (they were lovely) and although it wasn't "mushy" I chewed it really well until it was. My biggest vice is STILL snacking in the evening, and although my water drinking has curbed it a little, I know this is my danger time still. I find I am never hungry in the mornings, but it is the evening that I always tend to snack.. It drives me mad.
I suppose I havent done too bad so far with my weight loss, I have only 1.2lbs to go before I have my first stone gone... WOOHOOO!! I would love to hear your comments and questions if you have any folks, and I will try and keep you updated as much as I can! Cheerio, your fat friend xxx